Being a mother is hard work. Every single day, I work only for my children. I think about them every second of the day, always thinking of their welfare. As soon as I wake up in the morning and before I sleep at night, I pray for them. I pray for their health, their safety, their maturity, their future. When I take my children to school, and as they walk inside their campus, I pray that it would not be the last time I will see them. Whenever I am not with them, I pray and pray that at the end of the day, we will still sleep together.
Unappreciated Mother
Most of the time, though, I still feel I am not doing an excellent job at being a mother. I always feel worthless, unappreciated, and unsuccessful. I start wondering why my daughters still question my love for them. I start wondering why they think they lack attention from me when my whole world revolves around them. I do not even put much attention to myself anymore. Years ago, before I had children, I thought only of myself. I buy everything and do everything only for myself. Everything was just about me.
No Regrets
Today, I am 30 lbs. heavier, my hair is turning gray, I have anxiety, panic attack disorder, hypertension, and Atrial Fibrillation, and I am getting older by the day. But, I do not regret being old, gray, and anxious. I love my children, and every day, in spite of their doubts, I will still do everything and anything for them.
My Wish
I wish that one day, they will love me as unconditionally as I love them. I pray that one day, they will realize that I have sacrificed many things to make them happy, loved, and well provided for. I hope that one day, they will remember all the great things I have done for them and that they will do the same for their children.
What Mothers are Made Of
Being a mother is hard work, but I will continue to work doubly hard not just to be labeled as a good mother but to continue the legacy of what a true, real, genuine mother is all about. God made mothers that way. He made us be strong-willed, soft-hearted, hardworking, and spirit-filled to continue the legacy of His mother and to continue the circle of life because, without mothers like us, the world is not ever going to be a safe place to live.
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